May 30th, 2014 9:16 am

Lost empty closed and confused.
These are the feelings that are trapped inside of me.
Like the fat stuck to a piece of good chicken
or a
pimple on the face of an innocent adolescent.
This scent is strong and pungent
poisoning the hairs attached to my lungs
stinging the pathways connected to my heart.
Cutting off every single living functioning organ
that can prolong this life
that I am standing in
living in
four closed corners
that contain the emotions I feel on a daily
can be detrimental to
how I perceive this life.

This Illness

May 28th, 2014 10:18 pm

The only thing standing in between my hopes and dreams
is this illness: depression and anxiety.
The only thing standing in between believing in myself
is this illness: depression and anxiety.
The only thing keeping me from being sane
is this illness: depression and anxiety.
The only thing blocking my view on the future
is this illness: depression and anxiety.
The one thing stopping me from taking an action today to get past this illness depression and anxiety
is me.
And only me is standing in between my hopes and dreams.

Only Time Will Tell

A tiny seed that flourishes into something
greater than itself.
It has no knowledge of whether it is going
to grow tall or short,
or turn shades of pink, blue, or yellow.
Only time will tell.
It is planted in warmth soil
full of love from its maker.
And nurtured from the surrounding seeds.
Their energy radiates off from one another and
transform life to this particular seed to grow
into something greater than itself.
Day in and day out,
Only time will tell.
Water touches the seed
and tears of joy, laughter, and pain
The tiny seed begins to sprout.
Churning and anticipating its outlook on life.
But, only time will tell.
The rays from the sun extend and it
grows and turns into
a beautiful flower.
And it’s this flower created from a tiny seed
that touches the lives of everyone around it.
A tiny seed that had no clue of what its life
was going to be,
took the time to accept what life
had in store for thee.

What is my ideal person?

May 7th, 2014  11:34 am

Well tough question to be honest. Sometimes I wish I was just perfect; flawless in every way without any problems or issues. But, of course this cannot happen in the real world. Only in the ideal world I create in my head.

God did not make perfect people. If everyone was perfect there would not be lessons to be learned or problems to be solved. It would just be a world full of weak people.

The ideal person for myself…well…it would probably look a little like this:

  • To accept myself for all my flaws and issues.
  • Love myself for who I am not for what I am supposed to be.
  • To be in control of things…not let them control me and this includes people too.
  • To look at my failures as an opportunity to grow and learn.
  • Speak up and out when I need help and know that I cannot travel through this life alone…there will always be someone there.
  • Be comfortable in my own skin.
  • Believe that I am here for a purpose and a reason. (even though I just can’t seem to grasp this..)
  • Be the best person I can possibly be and do I can do and be all that I can be.

If you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always gotten.

Never a failure, always a lesson!

If you don’t like it , change it. If you can’t change it, change the way you think about it.