2 years…

2 years.

It has been 2 years since I’ve logged in.

2 years since I’ve shared with the world my progress, my accomplishments, the ups & downs; my struggles.

2 years since I’ve found the courage to write a new post about my whereabouts.

2 years since I’ve found myself, my voice…my soul.

Hello Phoenix followers!

It’s me Phoenix. Writing to you on a chilly Friday to update you on my mental health progress.

Last time I blogged, it was December 2014. At that time I re-entered my university after a medical leave of absence.

Where have I been you may ask? I got my life together.

I focused on what it is I wanted to accomplish; my motivation to live and breath everyday: to graduate with my Bachelors.

And so I did..used the last year and a half to focus my dreams. I am happy to say I will be graduating this May with my Bachelors in Chemical Engineering and very proud to say I am mentally “stable”.

Of course “stable” is very ambiguous. My “stability” may be quite different than yours. To elaborate…stability for me in this case means comfortable with the terms of my mental health disorder. I have embraced my major depressive disorder and bipolar disorder like the several birthmarks on my body.

Now everything is not “happy-go-lucky”. There are several times my mind wonders and I enter into a depressive state where I get lost in myself, in my thoughts and feelings.

But what do I do when this happens? I go for a run, work out, try to engage in a fun activity (like computer and phone games) or research random facts. Something to distract me from the evil monsters that tend to come and go when they please.

Something I’ve learned in the past year is that I, you, we are in control of our thoughts and feelings. We have the power to change our mind, alter our perspectives and scare those evil monsters away.

I hope you all are well. Know that there is always someone/something in your corner whether it is your friend, a family member, your dog or cat, or even your vegetable garden.

My goal is continue to share my story with the world in hopes to encourage others battling with mental illnesses.

Be well.

 

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14 thoughts on “2 years…”

  1. Welcome back Pheonix! I’ve missed you so much! I assumed you were having time out with your lovely family or taking a break to collect your thoughts.

    But wow, you’ve done even more than that – a masters! Congratulations and well done for all the hard work you’ve put in.

    I’m looking forward to reading your blogs again and sharing your world as you describe your feelings, memories and hopes.

    I’m sure all your followers are pleased to hear that you are okay and I am happy that you have put our minds at rest.

    The most important thing is that you are back doing this for you, and we have the privilege to get a glimpse into this journey your life is taking you on.

    Kind regards to you and your family xx

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